Remembering my mother 1952-2006

Yesterday and friday are huge days in my life, 2 years ago yesterday my mom overdosed on painmeds and alchahol and began her journey into the lord's arms a journey that lasted until May 16 the day i was given the opportunity to truly release her to our heavenly father. Its hard to beleive I've been completely on my own since that crazy day 2 years ago and to look back and see all that has happened to me. God's path isnt easy I've hurt, blead my heart out, gotten close to commiting, suicide, suffered, and felt many other emotions I would NEVER wish upon anyone but through it all even though I didnt believe God has been behind the scenes pulling me through and now after a long fought battle I'm finally allowed to see the result of what it feels like to follow Gods path and the reward at the end of it I cant describe in words the happiness i feel being at this place in my life even as I type this tears run down my face I am truly satisfied with everything in my life and everyone around me and even people i havent met yet. The more i let God in the more he comes in and speaks to me and now im ready for that I am truly ready to do whatever God has planed for me in this life and make my mother proud every day in everything I do by not just believing in God but living my religion every day, every minute and in every breath I take no matter the trials and tribulations i might go through, being honorable to my mothers memory is something thats above the top of my list and something that burns within me like a fire that can never be put out. Its crazy no matter how many times people have tried to hold me down and strip the things i love and care about away from me I always pull through and will continue to do so no one in existance can ever take away my determination no mater how much they try and with the fire of God buring inside me.....good luck. I am who i say i am and will always be that person even when I meet god in heaven because even if i loose everything I have I will still have everything within my faith for the Lord which is all I need and will ever need because everything else is just "stuff". So on this week a week that tore apart my world 2 years ago I remember all the good times and the truly loving nature of my mother and mothers everywhere.....my mother built me into the person I have become and a mothers love is the most beautifull thing that could ever exist on this plane of existance or the next....so to any one reading this: if you havent told your mother you love her do it now, if you havent given thanks to her for bringing you into this world and giving you the gift of her self sacrificing love show her thanks. A mothers love is something you will NEVER be able to replace in your life and you should never try. When I remember my mother I remember her laugh, I remember her smile, I remember the way she would say, "I love you son", I remember the way she made me the center of her world, I remember the way that she encouraged me even if everything was against me, I remember the way she always held me in her arms and told me everything would be ok even if it wasent, I remember the long talks we would have about life, and the many lessons she tought me, I remember a person that had the kindest heart beneath the drugs, alchahol, and pain she was going through, but most of all I remember her last words, "son I want to give you a better life, and i cant do so if im alive...Its time for me to go" words that ring through my soul and only now I'm seeing that she saw the will of God and gave up her life to give me life.....That right there is what makes our Mothers the most incredibile people in our lives...self sacrifice is the noblest thing in existance and most of all I remember Kathryn Elizabeth King (August 3 1952 - May 16th 2006) A woman that will live forever in my heart.